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You and I

I got 2, 5 years to tell y'all about

25 tears i cried and

set aside for a bitch that lied

now i sit inside can't believe that i tried

but i'd let it all go just to know

do you really trust in me or was it just a show?

now the shows that i go get a little bit longer

and the motivation gets a little stronger

so it's on him he dropped the ball

in the summer when i fall

cuz you made that call

i keep moving on with my mind on the goal

nothing could have stopped this, my cups not full

now it shows that you didn't all know

when i had to let it go

so you hear my heart fall

let us break it down

easily you understand

easily i had a plan

even if you make me fall

just know i'm gonna take a stand

pray for protection when i step on the stage

let the lights of this life blast the pain away

and i know there was nothing

that you could ever tell me it's true

i had it all figured out and now i'm running it through

stay moving dusts starts to settle around

gave up a little life just to gain a little ground

how'd make it this far without your love in my life

carry me close to your heart

i know it's hard

and nothing can compare when the feeling is there

you got a little something

something love-in like

you never had

nothing frontin just to get up and go

i'd do it all for you

and i know you know

the sound that lingered in my ears was made by your tears

that told me that you love me wanna make it last

but we only had what is done is bad

now i look to the sky just to cry

so forgive and let's live this life that i missed

let's hit this live and say hello with a fist

we wished we knew now we can't stop it

you didn't make it i just can't top it

so i ask

will you bless me please

expanding my territories

north and south just hear his mouth

the hands get weak and knees give out

you and i...

Love / 愛

LOVE
what is it?
what is the meaning of that so-called LOVE?
Love is blind? then are people is that stupid to shut their senses in order to sense love?
why is it that people loving each other, saying that they care for others more than anything else, but yet they are the one that cause deep wounds to their loved ones?
isn't it what a hypocrite defined as?
Boy loves girl, girl loves boy. They get married and live happily ever after. The end.
Is that what a love is?
If so, then I would rather say that it is BORING.
It's too good to be true.
Rules is made to be broken. That's what people say.
Then isn't love is made to be hated or hating?
Boy loves girl. Girl loves another boy. Boy hates boy.
Loving someone is also hating someone else.
Others would say that love is sacrifice.
We would sacrifice our feeling so that our loved ones can be happy with whom they chose to be with.
Then the 'sacrifice' is just another term of 'not being true to ourselves.'
And 'not being true to ourselves' term also means that we're living a meaningless life.
then what's the point?
Love is abstract, there is no fix meaning to it.
Different people having different love.
That's what the others would conclude what love is.
Then why ask its meaning at first place?
Is it just another excuse because they don't have the real answer of love?
or is it just another idiotic past time activity of asking the abstract of its solid?
whatever it is, in the end there is no real answer to this very question.
then why would bother ourselves with the undefined ones?
people just can't get enough of it.
they just don't get it.
that love, is, are, was, were and will always be the unknown.
x = love
mysteries unsolved~

Night that is a Hell

okay! i'm sleepy~ but can't afford myself to sleep. Got a plenty of work by my back. The unfinished database presentation that need to be present tomorrow, tutorials test maths and bla bla bla. Just took Arabs quiz just now, and guess what? I'm so deadly sleepy at that moment. Urghh!

: pls Baiz!! Get off from ur last minute work!!!
: how can I do it? it's my nature~ without it I'm no myself~

: Excuses after excuses~ what a Malay are you, hah!
: whatever~

Whatever~ the bright side is that I already got Windows 7..yay! Free of charge ;)
-the end- hahah

orion~

guess it's not too late to say hepy2 new year to whoever that's reading this..

urghh..i hate it when i want to update something but didn't have anything to write about..

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btw, i just finished leadtrain this afternoon..for those who don't know WTH leadtrain is, don't waste your curiosity on it. It's just some activities [some talk and not-so-interesting group work] that i forcefully need to attend in order to get 10% for my Understanding Islam subject.. && i survived it! hahah..

and believe it or not, i haven't watched Sherlock Holmes yet! hu3.. i really wanna watched it..last friday, instead of sherlock holmes, i watched Imaginarium of Dc. Parnassus..well, not my fault okay, the ticket is finished thanks to New Year holiday on that day >.<

next...i'm trying to finished watching all those 6 movies Saw...2 more to go~ honestly, it's more exiting and not-that-scared watching flesh being cut off to pieces than the ghost story..i know, others maybe think vice versa or maybe they don't mind both genre, but i seriously can't handle the ghost part (except for the 13th Ghost) hahah..

now i remember~ i need to sleep~~ hahah..trying to cover up for the unsleep night a.k.a the night before qiam's..hahah..

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next~

wifi suck!

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next

mid-term exam is finished..

and hopefully it'll be much more better than last sem..

seriously, i cant afford to failed AGAIN this tym..

next

one last bullshit that i need to forcefully go through is the leadtrain..

urgh!!!!

minna-san, i'm having my new year celebration with leadtrain activities..

that'll sign something not so lucky for my next yr..

next

thinking of buying mp3..

but don't want to spend my allowance on it..

can somebody buy me one.. hehe

next

thinking of posting ~zero~ in my blog..

next

okay..i'm done for now..

just that i cant find anything to talk bout..

n now i gotta get ready for the arabic class...

oh ustaz~~

hahah..

mid-sem break..

i need a break..~ & i need a break..

not that i'm THAT tired..

but still, i need a break..

hahah..am i that close to losing it?

next..

one piece the movie is out on 12th Dec..

but there's no screening on it in here..urgh!

okay..

i'm moving on now..

next..

mid-sem break is here..

not feeling so over-excited like last sem..

dunno why..

next..

okay..i'm stuck..

this entry is about to end without anyone understand it..

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~the end~

Bandage

in the blue sky the vapour trail paints a white line,

it can't be buried or float, it's just heartbreaking,

mix up this and that, please do mix it all up,

take good things and mix it up,

just go along with what will change,

we hit a 4 beat and went with the distorted heart,

we'll target you with shy eyes,

no matter how many years passed,

there will be something that'll never change,

raise the chameleon-like flag,

chest puffed out with pride, looking up at the sky,

we'd been lost, we'd been lazy, we'd rested for a while,

but we'd gathered, we'd made sounds, we'd created something,

line them up, mix them up,

change them to being connected, finally,

from a corner of a far east,

we made a beat that had been etched in a distorted riff,

sadness that crossed the sky,

it will probably make a cluster of melodies and words

that had never been seen before,

hard and soft like a machine,

like the love of sun that shines coldly

I searched for new things,

everything from A to Z is rusty,

I can't blame it on anyone else,

but I want to blame it on someone,

I'll spread my closed wings again like I had done before,

because I'll get to be near you,

always things are in discord,

in a love-like chaotic sea we'll go leaping in

and it is not a simple beat,

we'll go up the spiral trajectory and I'll take your hands,

no matter how many years passed,

there will be something that will never change,

raise the chameleon-like flag,

chest puffed out with pride,

looking up on the sky,

Bandage.

lalala..

- mid term exam is just around the corner..& as i expect, no revision-mood available yet..

-elaun is in babeh! :D [leh la g Comic Carnival this Saturday..] btw, got Animax booth there..

-want to give a surprise to my family.. i didn't tell them that i'm going back this Eid..hehe3..

updates...

hmm..1st of all, konpem aku balik raya nie..dah tempah tiket dah..so, klu ad hri yg ak x g klas mggu rya haji tu mknanya ak dah blah dah..hahah..

btw.. Aisyah..sorry sgt2 psl nk jd photographer tu..t'lupa la..plus mngantuk pon ad..hu3..

tuto maths mdm dah bg dah..gila bapak byk gila soklan..n aku satu pe pon blom start lg..hu3..bila la prangai wat last minute aku nie nk brubah..

if i'm not wrong, 25hb nie kot LandS : Bandage pnya single kuar..wua!! nk beli!! urgh!!

Koki..otanjoubi omedatou!!! i know it's too late already..hahah..

bakanishi~ <3

1. dammit! Arashi won over KAT-TUN in battle of the pop at channel V.. nooo!!!!

2. can't wait for the release of Bandage single.. jin~

3. big date --> 16 Jan 2010 (Bandage's premiere) ...

4. i really don't think my HD will fit enough for all the videos that i got..h

mm..

5. Yukan Club saikyo! :D

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1. whatever they all say, my vote still goes to Akame.

2. freaking out when thinking about exam result..urgh!!

3. i'm so not going to invite her anymore. she's just so immature!

4. having some reunion wit my primary school's besties..

end-of-sem

whoaa..mcm x caya je dah habih 1 sem..

cam baru je msok bulan lps.. ~hahah,melebih r tu~

hmm..pe2 pon..bila sebut psl final exam, mmg aku no komen...

tuan2 dan puan2 ...

anda sdg membaca blog yg tuannya akan repeat next sem nie..hahah..seriously,mmg aku akan repeat..(wuah,mcm mnyumpah diri sndri pon ada)..hu3..

byg kan la,math pon aku start revise 1jam sblom msok exam..hu3..igtkan nk start mlm tu,tgk2 tetido! hu3..x guna pnya katil!! (katil jgak la yg dipersalahkan..adey)..

mmg cuti raya ritu buku x bwk kuar pon dr beg.. :D

pe2 je la..

exam speaking english td pon mcm hampeh! isi dy bg mmg snang sgt..kna ckp psl hoby..tp aku r..cuak x tentu psl..dah la tuh,blank plak..tba2 rsa cam isi xda..hu3..hrp2 examiner tu baek sgt2 ... bg aku lulus..bg cukup2 mkn pon xpe r..asalkan Lulus! xnak repeat english! hu3..boring r klu repeat english! pe2 je la..

~benda alah psl final exam --> closed~

newS

- i started revising math 1hr b4 the exam..dang! ~sah2 nie muka repeat math dah nie~ hu3 ...

- sooooo in love wit Akame & Ryopi...

- x beli lg tiket bas! hu3.. nk balik!

- 7/10/09 ~ nk kuar jln sehari suntuk dgn ABC'S .. x sabo dah nie..

- thinking of changing to BlackBerry Storm..what u think??

- lambatnya nk habih exam nie!!! hu3..

:D <3

JE

KAT-TUN

K - Kamenashi Kazuya

A - Akanishi Jin

T - Taguchi Junnosuke

T - Tanaka Koki

U - Ueda Tatsuya

N - Nakamaru Yuichi

NewS

Yamashita Tomohisa

Nishikido Ryo

Tegoshi Yuya

Koyama Keiichiro

Shigeaki Kato

Masuda Takahisa